I'm tired and I need a long break.
The work an unknown good man has done is like a vein of water flowing hidden underground, secretly making the ground green. ~Thomas CarlyleWe all want to make a difference. People dare defy limits of wisdom to create something out of nothing. Through the years, we never stopped in our desire to seek purpose and fulfillment in daily existence. We seek, and sometimes we find, sometimes we don’t. We want to see changes. Apparently though, not all people work to make these changes happen. Some do, at a certain extent.
It was very brave of him to open simple truths to us. He started telling us stories of how his people live their daily lives. The aetas in the community depend on hunting and farming for sustaining their barest necessities. Everyday, fathers would go to the forests to cut bamboos, and sell them off to people for 1 peso. He said, the largest income an aeta could have in this kind of job is a hundred a day. Most of the families eat once or twice and sadly, these meals consist mainly of only rice, soy sauce and cooking oil. If they're unlucky, they could have coffee spilled on rice for breakfast. Because food was even barely enough for the entire family, fathers have no choice but ask their children to help them in earning a living. Ergo, most of the children ditch classes to go out into the forest to work. Father Lauro was so happy to tell us that he finds hope in two aetas who are currently pursuing their second year in college.
These children, I told myself, they should know that they could get more when they finish their studies. They can uplift the lives of their siblings and they can give more comfortable lives for their parents. It hurts me even more that they cannot live to look forward to achieving these things for they already struggle to live for today. While Father was talking, it was by reflex that I shed tears not out of pity but out of guilt that I knew I could only do this much even if I knew I would have wanted to do more.